missing him

Now it's been one and a half day that I haven't seen my baby and I miss him! We've practicly taken a break, to let ourselves adjust to the changes, and also to give ourselves time to miss eachother! The other day we was partying and as always these days he was with his friend babic, and I tagged along cause I felt like having fun with them. But as always, I get a delusion from it because I always fel further away from him. This has been going on for a good time now, because of the fact that we've practicly hated eachother the last month. I am with him but he never talks to me, about much. He spends all of his sparetime with his best friend babic, he talks about everything with his best friend babic. The problem with this is that I feel stupid for thinking that it's ever going to change, that he will ever want to spend his time with me like we used to once. Nowdays I feel like the dog that follows, sometimes we can talk, but it's mostly to criticize me. The consequence of it all is that for every little moment that I get that feeling, I can't help but starting to hate the situation and starting to ask myself why I'm in the same situation as always. That night was the same, when I got that feeling and all I wanted to do was to go home and be by myself better than be in that company. The consequence of all this, hoping, expecting made our relationship real shitty....

So now, we are still loving eachother. We always will.
But I'm hoping that we will go back to being how we were once...